Sleep Deprevation
Okay, the great thing about having a blog, especially one that probably practically nobody reads (don't worry, I don't blame you... although you don't know anyway since you aren't reading this LOL) is that you can rant/ramble about pretty much anything, anytime, for no good reason.
So, that's why I'm posting this mindless drivel at some randomly ungodly hour of the morning when I should be sleeping, but can't because if I go back to bed now, I won't be able to get up in an hour or two and function. Life sucks sometimes, you know? Especially the deadlines part... *sigh*
So I'm sitting here, trying to work on the next chapter of my fic "Crimson Door" and not just sit staring blankly at my computer. *reaches for more coffee* Yeah, I've gotten about a paragraph done in an hour. :P
I'm currently listening to "Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly" by H.I.M and trying to figure out a way to incorporate the lyrics of that song into the title of my next chapter, because some of the lyrics fit very nicely.
Heaven ablaze in our eyes
We're standing still in time
The blood on our hands is the wine
We offer as sacrifice
Come on, and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
This endless mercy mile
We're crawling side by side
With hell freezing over in our eyes
Gods kneel before our crime
Come on lets show, them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
Don't let go
For your soul...
I'm thinking of either "For your Soul" or "Gods kneel before our Crime" I think the last one is too long, I'll probably go with the first... but I haven't decided yet.
OH! I'm happy to say that lightpathetic has started posting a new story over on ff.net. Hasn't got a real title yet, but you can find it here: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4009158/1/As_Yet_Untitled
It's continuing on with her Kaname and Zero "series" dealing with what happens when Kaname has to marry Sara. A new story from her was definitely a delightful way to while away some time this morning!
Okay... so... right, back to working on my story now. *blinks owlishly at the computer* or at least... pretending to try to... *falls alseep on the keys*
zzzzzzzzzzz
So, that's why I'm posting this mindless drivel at some randomly ungodly hour of the morning when I should be sleeping, but can't because if I go back to bed now, I won't be able to get up in an hour or two and function. Life sucks sometimes, you know? Especially the deadlines part... *sigh*
So I'm sitting here, trying to work on the next chapter of my fic "Crimson Door" and not just sit staring blankly at my computer. *reaches for more coffee* Yeah, I've gotten about a paragraph done in an hour. :P
I'm currently listening to "Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly" by H.I.M and trying to figure out a way to incorporate the lyrics of that song into the title of my next chapter, because some of the lyrics fit very nicely.
Heaven ablaze in our eyes
We're standing still in time
The blood on our hands is the wine
We offer as sacrifice
Come on, and show them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
This endless mercy mile
We're crawling side by side
With hell freezing over in our eyes
Gods kneel before our crime
Come on lets show, them your love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul, my love
Rip out the wings of a butterfly
For your soul
Don't let go
For your soul...
I'm thinking of either "For your Soul" or "Gods kneel before our Crime" I think the last one is too long, I'll probably go with the first... but I haven't decided yet.
OH! I'm happy to say that lightpathetic has started posting a new story over on ff.net. Hasn't got a real title yet, but you can find it here: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4009158/1/As_Yet_Untitled
It's continuing on with her Kaname and Zero "series" dealing with what happens when Kaname has to marry Sara. A new story from her was definitely a delightful way to while away some time this morning!
Okay... so... right, back to working on my story now. *blinks owlishly at the computer* or at least... pretending to try to... *falls alseep on the keys*
zzzzzzzzzzz
Labels: crimson door, fanfiction, HIM, insanity, kaname and zero, kaname and zero fanfiction, lightpathetic, Rip out the wings of a butterfly
I am reading your blog - and your fanfiction too:) I love them! Although I'm Hungarian, I can understand everything, and I think you are the best fanfic writer I have ever seen.
I think I will registrate on fanfiction.net just because of you, so I can send a loong praising review:)
Posted by
Anonymous |
January 15, 2008 5:31 AM
WOW!! I actually have a reader!
And such an incredibly wonderful one too! *blushes deeply* Thank you soooo much! It means a lot to me to know that you're enjoying my fanfiction and even my silly rambling here. :D
You're Hungarian? Cool! I'm very impressed, I wish I knew more languages. I'm always in jealous awe of people who can work with more than one.
Thanks again for taking the time to comment. You made my day. :D
Posted by
Blackened Wing |
January 19, 2008 2:28 PM
So desperate to read something from BW that I haven't read yet so I landed here...cos my PC's gonna go on strike if it has to display that C.Door warehouse scene one more time esp. when work is not done yet *shakes PC* why don't u like Kaname & Zero? Why?! Ahem.. *releases abused PC & grins sheepishly*
Your blogs & comments are so cute!
Oh and *try not to look like she's also desperate for praise & whispers* I can speak a little bit of Cantonese too, you know...
OMG, I am just so pathetic - all your fault for making me hooked on your VK fics... not that I'm asking you to stop, mind you, no indeed not... *winces at glare from PC* okie, okie, getting back to work now... just lemme type in that strange verification text below and click on the Publish button
- YenGirl
Posted by
Anonymous |
March 6, 2008 1:20 AM
You can speak Cantonese?! Okay, I'm officially jealous, seems everyone can speak another language but me. *pouts* (the little Spanish I know so doesn't count...) ;D
LOL your computer is rebelling is it? Well don't worry, should be updating CD again today if all goes well... *crosses fingers* So then you'll have some more new stuff to read. :) Thanks for your comments! Love 'em to death! Er... I didn't mean that as morbid as it sounded... geez, did you ever stop to think about how some of our turns of phrase and expressions of speech sound if you take them litterally? *blinks*
Ooookay, sorry, rambling... *reaches for some coffee and goes back to chapter prepping*
Posted by
Blackened Wing |
March 6, 2008 12:21 PM
Don't worry, I know what u mean! Hmm.. Spanish? Or should I learn Japanese first? Yes, PC mucho relieved to display something new, LOL!
OK, I will need some time to compose myself before writing C.Door Ch27 review... but at the same time I know you will not end it like that so will keep the unopened tissues boxes for later... *quickly ties up rubbish bag already filled with salty damp tissues* Oops, u caught me, OK, OK, so I cried - sue me! *watery smile & reddened nose*
- YenGirl
Posted by
Anonymous |
March 6, 2008 9:36 PM
Sorry, I don't wanna give away your super-duper ending to C.Door or anything esp after Ch27, but if I don't get this off my chest (even though I'm actually s'posed to be working now), I may very well:
a) explode into a thousand frustrated pieces
b) go hopelessly insane
c) start jumping around and screaming 'I can't stand it anymore'!!
d) All, in the order of c), b), a)
So, this is just my take on what I would like to happen in Ch28, to make me feel better. I've posted it here (where it's relatively hidden) as opposed to your FF forum (where I'll prob get shot at), on the gazillion-to-1 chance it has any similarity to the one you're cooking up with your adorable vampire muse - we must give her a name, by the way - really! Do feel free to completely disregard of course!
- Chairman, Takuma, Aido, Kain & Ruka burst into the room.
- Our fav tousle haired blond Math wizard aristocrat takes in the scene in his stride and blood seal comes into effect.
- Not sure whose blood will be used (or all of theirs? sweet!) because Zero's lost so much already, hence small tussle between as they fight for the honour - esp. Takuma, Aido, Ruka? Yuuki volunteers too, only is disregarded or ignored, poor dear!
Then - the moment when Kaname's eyes flicker open... the first two faces he sees are Zero's & Yuuki's, with tears streaming down their faces... when he knows what's happened, Kaname tears up too, because he never expected... Then his gaze expands and he sees the others kneeling around him, all crying too. All of them who love him because of WHO he is, not WHAT he is. A perfect poignant moment of silence... then all hell breaks lose - hugging, kissing, whooping, yelling, the shameless crying, the works!!
Kaname's kiss with Yuuki will be soft, sweet & passionate. Kaname's kiss with Zero will be heated, desperate, even angry at how much was sacrificed, forgiving for the pain and suffering... and just plain to heck with anyone who's watching... *spaces out, unable to type more*
Sorry, maybe I should just sit tight and wait for the real Ch28 to come out, but I do feel much better after typing all this down *inhales deeply then starts bouncing up and down in chair, an eye out for Ch28 alert and holding opened tissue box at the ready*
- YenGirl
Posted by
Anonymous |
March 7, 2008 3:14 AM
Yeah... I cried too actually. Really weird to find yourself crying so much you can hardly see the screen while you're writing. :P
*enigmatic grin* Ahhh... must admit, I like your wish list for the next chapter. :) May not happen *quite* that way exactly, but, eh... without giving too much away, let me just say good job on picking up on some of the peices planted ahead of time for this moment. :)
Thanks!!!
Posted by
Blackened Wing |
March 7, 2008 10:33 AM
Thanks, Emese agrees with the seal too (most likely not wanting to further incite my already hyper rabid state of mind due to Ch27, LOL!-thanks, Emese, if you're reading this!) but with Chairman playing a bigger portion...
Oh well *sigh* will just resign myself to sitting tight and praying that you put us out of our misery soon!
- YenGirl
Posted by
Anonymous |
March 8, 2008 4:46 AM